I come to you today a defeated soul. After receiving another rejection email for a job position that I recently applied to, I am completely clueless about where to turn to next. I keep trying to be optimistic and look on the bright side. I'm 22 years old, a recent college graduate, I have good health, a wonderful support system but the one thing, the biggest thing that's missing in my life is a JOB! When I say job I mean JOB! I'm not expecting or looking for my dream job that comes with a six figure salary, I've been applying to all types of places from retail to administrative and it seems to always have the same end result. Everyday I check my email there's another email praising me for my qualifications but telling me that I'm not good enough to hire. I've been on this job hunting journey for almost a year and it is really starting to tear down every single piece of self confidence I have in my body! I was always the over achiever in school. From pre-K throughout college I was that kid at the awards ceremony getting acknowledged for something and now its like I'm not achieving anything.((hence the title))
A lot of people around me are very critical of the fact that I'm unemployed and they make a mockery of it. So many times people say "Well what did you go to college for?" "A degree in American Studies & you want to be a journalist? They don't make any money." "You have to try harder to find a job. You're so lazy you only rely on the internet to find jobs." Like really I can go on for days and days about the criticisms people give me for my degree choices and being unemployed but no one really knows what its like to be here, in this uncomfortable, situation. Everyone and their grandmother has some sort of advice for what I'm not doing and what I should be doing but I really have tried just about everything. I'm like two seconds from applying to McDonalds but I learned from my undergrad experience from applying there that I'm "over qualified." Its funny and disheartening at the same time. All the jobs I genuinely want reject me because I am "under qualified." All of the jobs that I apply to out of desperation reject me because I am "over qualified."
Tuhhh Its hard out here for us college grads and I just wish people would cut me some slack. I spend hours a day trying to revamp my resume and applying to jobs on craigslist, careerbuilder, and google but its not coming up with any worthwhile results. I swore to myself that after college I would be in a completely different place that I am in now. I had my mind set that retail was out of the question for me in a completely different way then it is right now. While I was in school, I thought retail after graduation was out of the question because I'd find my ideal job but in reality retail is out of the question for me because of this crappy economy and the fact that no one's really hiring any more.
Whatever diligence and resilience I thought I had is leaving me with every rejection letter I receive. My faith in myself is like non existent at this point. I swear I've never been so insecure in my life. I pray and pray and pray that God shows me the way to whatever he has in store for me. I ask God to give me the strength to get through this very unfortunate phase in my life because without it I know I'm doomed. Its just so hard to keep a positive attitude when things are going so wrong. I've said all this to say what? IDK. I'm just here venting. I've been going through a lot these last couple of weeks, hence my absence. I just figured that I come and update my blog and possibly make myself feel a little bit better but ultimately the only thing that will make me better is a goddamn JOB! lol!
Thanks for sitting through my emotional rant,
Jas
